Where I have been.

OfficialSand.

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I have been away for a year, which is a long time.
I didn't want to return until now I guess.

However, it took a while to think and decide the return of me here.
For you lot wondering what happened to me during my long break from the forums, here is it.

When I deactivated my account back in August, I was dealing with clinically diagnosed depression, self-hate, self-harm issues, and some Narsscism.
I didn't want to accept the fact that you people were helping me improve, because I didn't care.
My clinical depression was really frustrating for me, back in 2020.

One day in August of last year, I was sitting on a platform in a train station, waiting to kill myself.

What stopped me, was my acceptance.
I started to realize that people like my family, friends, and crush were the helpers.
That was the turning point.


At the start of 2021, I was taken to a mental hospital after constant suicidal ideations and self-harm, I stayed there for three days.
After leaving, the improvements came.

I started to feel happy again, comfortable again, and healthy again.
My feelings for self-harm were gone and still are.
I haven't planned any suicide, after February.
My mental illness has calmed down and is almost gone at this point.

I love life again.
I am happy again, and I am glad for it.


I love you a lot.
You matter.

X, sand.